Did you know that on any given day, countless individuals around the world grow so frustrated with life and their inability to deal with what life deals them that they put an end to their life? Did you know that those who choose to end their lives felt they had no other solution to their problems and that no one could possibly understand or help them? Did you know that more times than not, a person intent on ending their life can be talked out of it, given help and never tries to commit suicide again?
Did you know that the most common response to someone committing suicide is anger and not pity as the victim had hoped? Did you know that the predominant reasons for people thinking suicide is the only answer are hopelessness and anger? Did you know that it is a horrible shame this whole topic is shoved into the closet and rarely talked about because it is not pleasant?
People who are mad usually take out their anger on others before ending their own lives. Every day there are stories of someone killing innocent family members or strangers and then killing themselves. Unbridled anger causes people to literally go insane. Their ability to think rationally and logically is erased and what they end up doing makes no sense to anyone but themselves. How else could a person killing their spouse, child or parent before killing themselves be explained?
People who are depressed and whose life is filled with pain (physical, emotional or mental) feel no one understands or cares about them and their situation. They isolate themselves and ultimately talk themselves into believing the only way out is to end it all. Most people who end their own lives absolutely believe there are no other options left and talk themselves into doing what they know in their hearts is wrong.
Nearly 30 years ago I was one of those people who felt there was no way out of the mess I had made of my life and ministry. As the walls closed in around me and everything I had worked so hard at for 15 years crumbled, I didn’t believe I would or could survive. Obviously something happened that prevented me from ending my life for I am here writing this blog.
What took place is so important that I have decided to devote a few blogs to the subject. If God only delivered me and that was that, there would be nothing to write about. But, what took place nearly 30 years ago saved and changed my life then and continues to keep me on solid ground to this day.
Most of us either have dealt with depression or know someone who has. Many of us have known people who have either tried to end their lives or did. Most of us have wondered what we could have done to have helped or even prevented such a thing from happening. Speaking as a survivor, I have a story to tell and I pray my testimony will speak volumes to whoever needs it or can be helped by it.